Sunday, October 9, 2011

A New Beginning

I need to write again.

I started this blog because I wanted to share my experiences with others. My hope was to reach out to other moms who have children with Asperger’s Syndrome and gardeners who are trying to live a more sustainable life. The two go together for me. The cleaner our diets are, the better it is for my son. When he has fresh, organic food, he is calmer and more focused. When we get busy and eat out, he is hyper and difficult for days. Even when I try to watch what he eats, some things get by me and he falls apart.

I decided to plant a garden and provide more of our food myself. I even had chickens for a while, but they turned out to be roosters, so they are now living it up at the local organic farm J

And I started to blog. I have never had a blog, so I am learning as I go. I tried to write a couple times a week. I followed the prompts and posted my entries. It was kind of fun for a while. It was neat to see when someone had read an entry, even if they did not leave a comment. But now the page tells me that no one is reading my last few pages.

Well, I stopped posting. I told myself I would still keep a journal, but would not post it to a blog. After a few weeks, my mom mentioned that I had not posted an entry in a while. I was surprised and explained to her that my page said they were not being read. Apparently, she has been reading them but my settings page is not seeing it. Maybe people need to join in order for the page to see them.  I’m not sure, but if there is a chance that people are reading them, then I will start to post again.

Life with my son is an emotional roller coaster. Every time I think we have a difficult situation worked out, something else crops up. Kyle will be 13 in a few weeks. He forgets things constantly. Any slight change in routine will derail him.

This weekend we had a yard sale with another family. If you have had a yard sale, you know how it can turn your world upside down. I tried to keep him on schedule. We ordered pizza. It was my hubby’s birthday, and we were trying to get some last minute things ready for the sale.

The next day, we were up at 5:00 am. I made banana bread and coffee while everyone set up for the sale. I did not volunteer at the stables, but made sure I had Kyle there in time for his lesson. When we came back home it was time to close the sale and figure out where to store the things that did not sell. We had a cookout afterwards with our friends. We don’t have a lot of company. People have a hard time understanding Kyle’s behavior. So it was a real treat to have friends over. They climbed trees, watched tv and swam in the pool. Later I built a fire in our fire bowl and we all relaxed and talked. It was good for Kyle. If he got tired or overwhelmed, he could just go inside for a while.

But the next day brought so much rain. We missed church, so we listened to a sermon online. I did get two more trees planted, the fig and the apple. In the afternoon we went to across the bay to do some shopping. Kyle was uncooperative most of the day. He obeyed when we asked for him to do something, but he did so with resistance and attitude.

After dinner, I asked him to bring me his school planner. I found that he had homework to do. Quite a bit of it too. He “forgot” about it and pitched a fit when I told him it needed to e done tonight. After a two hour battle, I sent him to bed. He will need to get up early and finish it instead of his morning cartoon. I can only hope that break in routine doesn’t mess up his day at school.

His doctor is coming to the school to meet with our team of teachers in a couple weeks. The hope is to help our teachers understand him better and write a success plan for Kyle. Maybe then things will even out a bit, with school anyway. For now I guess I have to continue to remind him to follow his routines. And to ask God for strength and guidance each day.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”                                                                               Philippians 4:6